Coping Mechanisms
I’m doing a lot of things these days that are not part of my normal lifestyle. Even things I felt I’d “rid” my lifestyle of, as if I’d found a moral high ground without them. Things like drinking diet soda, playing video games, watching tv til 2am and endless bowls of cereal for no reason.
Maybe you relate.
Or perhaps you’re dealing with this entirely differently.
Perhaps for many, we are reaching, emotionally.
Because it all feels so constant.
I don’t know what’s right, I’m not sure any of us do.
So we do what feels the closest thing to it.
Just in need of simple comforts.
Reminding ourselves it’s not “bad” to do so.
Even if it’s all contrastingly different than what we did before.
This is us, coping during a pandemic without any guidebook in place to do so.
And it feels unstable.
Because really, it is.
So we may move from laughing to crying one moment to the next.
“I got this” to “no I don’t” from one room to the next.
Grateful for this time, and resentful of it too.
So I’m doing what feels the closest to right, right now.
Drinking the damn soda. Eating more damn carbs. Watch TV to drown out the noise.
Whatever feels the closest to right.
